I just went to type in the date as Feb 3. it's the 4th. This isn't that big a deal, and to the rest of the world would seem just a case of a missed number. But, this is, for me, such a common occurrence, that, i may as well have typed june 31 (which, i do now realize is not even a date.)
I am perpetually lost in time. A perfect example of this is that i intended my blog project to start at the new year. i started last week and was extremely proud of myself, because to me, the end of january is as much the beginning of the new year as jan 1. i would have still been proud had it been march, because, really- that's still at the front of the calendar. but, my time-loss goes deeper than that and happens almost daily. i will look at the clock and it will say something like 1:30 (in the afternoon). i will do what feels like enough to fill about 20 minutes worth of time, yet when i glance back at the same clock, it will be 4:15 (still afternoon, thankfully.) I am late to everything for this exact reason. well, that and because it somehow takes me 15 minutes to get from my front door to my car. every time i leave on time by the clock in my living room, i get into the car and it's 15 minutes later! and i've synchronized!?! i just don't understand.
some people (like my husband) have this insanely accurate sense of time. my daughter, who thinks that it is always 28 (that's her time, temperature, and weight if you ask her), is still more accurate than i am.
i don't think this is something that can be resolved. i am just time-blind, if you will, and they do not make corrective time lenses the last time i checked. i will just have to accept (and so will all of those around me) that i will most likely be late; i will most likely have no idea what the date is (or day of the week, for that matter); nor will i probably ever grasp the mental feel of what a "month" is, because they seem to slip by like seconds, too.
and with all of this having just been written, i just glanced down at the time on my draft and thought to myself that i will need to fix my settings, because the time is wrong. but, no. it's not wrong. it really is 10:15, not 9:30 like i was expecting to see... another 45 minutes- gone!
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