Today I found a fourth dead baby bird under the nest. He was a more feathered and slightly plumper version of his brothers, but I knew he was definitely dead upon first sight. Today I spent a crazy amount of money on appliances that should not have needed to be replaced so early in their lives. Today was that day. Today, I decided to end all of this. I decided that I need to shake my head as hard as I can to clear away this proverbial raincloud that has been sitting above me for well over a week now. I am not a negative person. I do not enjoy negativity. And I feel as if the cosmos has been subliminally alerting me, or rather pounding me hard over the head, to wake up and shake the blahs away.
And so I did. I shook, and shook and shook, and you know what- i shook those blahs away! and i feel great. I said good-bye to the (hopefully) last baby robin. I said hello to all NEW shiny appliances! I said good-bye to the bad luck streak that's been lingering, and I said hello to a new and shiny attitude and life!
Even the crescent moon is sitting on his side tonight in a smile.
I feel good.
I am listening to bob marley with the windows open and a cool breeze flowing through the air. my children are asleep and my husband and i are about to enjoy some wine together outside on the oasis of our patio. tomorrow we will bet on horses, and if luck has stayed with my daughter, she will win money again like last year! i will enjoy a wonderful weekend with friends and my family. i will forget about the three coolers of ice sitting on my countertops, and instead have beautiful visions of grocery shopping! filling an entirely new and barren fridge and freezer! that is heaven! i will finally say good-bye to the baby birds, and move on to be thankful for my own full nest of healthy babies.
i am refreshed, rejuvenated, a redemption of sorts- worthy of a redemption song.
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