Tuesday.

Prior to today, a normal Tuesday used to find my girls and me in bed until at least 9:00a.m.  Even if any of us were up earlier, we'd all climb into my bed, turn PBS on and sip our drinks (respectively milk, bottle, and coffee!)  This would keep us comfortable and happy for enough time for mommy to wake up and face the day.  This was our old Tuesday morning ritual. 


Something with the time change, or our schedule changes, or the bedroom changes, or the who-the-heck-knows-what-changes changed our Tuesday morning today.  And i loved our tuesday morning.  Today, actual Tuesday, began horribly at 1:00 a.m., when M came bursting into my room screaming bloody murder.  After i have no idea how long, i was finally able to calm her down enough for her to tell me, "I don't know," repeatedly to the question, "What's wrong?"  She couldn't tell me why she was hysterical- and i mean hysterical to the point of nearly hyperventilating.  It lasted a long time.  A long, long time.  I felt horrible for her, but i was so frustrated that she was being so loud (the baby is still sleeping through the night, and i don't need anything to make that change!), and so tired all at once.  I finally got her back to sleep with a slight whimper at about 2:30 in the morning.  I crawled back into my bed for what felt like a few minutes, when the baby began screaming.  It had actually been four hours, but it felt much more like four minutes.  She woke up around 6:30 a.m. for good.  For good, and not for snuggling in bed watching cartoons-up, Nooooo- she was up and wanted to be in the living room playing.  i am not sure how long it's been since i've been up and standing in the kitchen drinking coffee that i made myself at 7:00 a.m., but today was certainly a first in a long, long time.


and now it's 9:00 p.m. and i feel like it's midnight.  i would love to say that i'm about to crawl into bed and say good-bye to this day, but i still have lunches to make and clothes to lay out and probably laundry to do (since i seem to be recycling the same few outfits for work.)  But soon enough i will enclose myself in the cocoon of comforters and fall fast asleep, hoping and praying that it lasts until morning.